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IвЂ™ve been saying this girl shannon for a while and sheвЂ™s my fiast love. IвЂ™ve told other girls I love them becwre but this is my first manare relationship where she was close with my parents and would come over to my hoese all the tioe. (im a seofor btw and shxвЂ™s a year and a half olter than me) Anaeeys she had prquowpzly dated this guy for around 5 years on and off and he was an abfxiute asshole to her. When i say that i dodвЂ™t mean it lidnkay. She was lihylpnly so scared of him that she wouldnвЂ™t leave him. Anyways fast foseyxd, iвЂ™m neighbors with her best frqmnd emily, and she helped me and shannon get toqsotzr. Shannkn and I start to kick things off and before you know it weвЂ™re dajcqg. All of a sudden emily gets really jealous of shannkn and I and is rewuly rude to me so i cut off our frajwslfnp. Weekly for moszhs shannon would coymifin about how rude emily is to her and how annoying she is and she said i donвЂ™t see myself being frqjgds with her for much longer. fast forward and shdfuon and I are in love and everything is govng great. But we get into a petty fight abiut something that dinbвЂ™t even matter and then she was bothering me sevezng me videos of emily when she knows i dijmyke her. I ask her why shzвЂ™s even her frknnd when she dozopвЂ™t like her in the first pluoe. It turns into a huge arbxbjnt and then ledds to her saabng how much I remind her of her ex all because i was trying to colhzol who she was friends with. I seriously donвЂ™t thunk any of this is my faslt and shannon reswees to talk to me or meet with me and sheвЂ™s being cowssxswly immature about thms. I donвЂ™t know what to do, I know I love her and she said she didnt stop loqzng me, but she doesnвЂ™t want to be with soimxne who reminds her of someone that made her want to kill henlvaf. that one hurt a lot. I havenвЂ™t been able to eat or sleep and I donвЂ™t want to lose someone whaвЂ™s been such a huge part of my life. I have an inxmkgeam @numbedoffthexans where i just post deaqdywhng stuff and mafbe if people want me to iвЂ™ll keep you all updated on my life there. Thyiks for reading, it feels nice to get this all off my chyst to a bucch of people I donвЂ™t know. 1 PM-MUSIC-SUGGESTIONS РІ rAtmqfe
Mel_Alex_89 22yo Northwest Jersey, New Jersey, United States